7.20.12 Grocery Day

Ah, grocery day. A day to wander the isles of Sam's Club and Fred Meyer leisurely  looking at food, thinking what can I make for 1 or 2. Ah, NO. More like rushing through Sam's Club trying to avoid going over budget and praying the 4 year old doesn't hit the "I-only-got-5-hours-of-sleep-and-need-a-nap". Ah, but it was nice. I spent the day with Lelly Poo and then the afternoon getting Olivia all ready for Girl Scout camp. I love my kids! So, this budget thing. I stayed under budget. I remember someone telling me one year for LENT they gave up shopping. This struck a cord with me the beginning of July, and I felt the need to try something like this. There is a scripture somewhere about the left hand not knowing what the right hand is doing, so I'll only say, that God is good. He is able when I am not and He gently reminds me that it's okay and that I can depend on Him. Now, World Eskimo Indian Olympics, I did not go this year. In fact I don't think I can remember the last time I went. Growing up my mom rarely took myself and my siblings to outings like these. I know it's not because she didn't WANT to, but more because she was unable to. So it doesn't bother me not to go. What DOES bother me is when people ask why I don't go, or tell me "YOU HAVE to bring your kids around." Hm, let me tread lightly here. It's late and anyhow. I feel like I know how to raise my kids, I feel like my parents raised me just fine. Culture was never over pushed on us, we learned we are first Children of God, before any color or nationality. I am thankful for this. We also were taught they we don't need to "follow the crowd". or constantly be people, but that we can have our family and the ties that bind. We are VERY close, my sisters, brother, in-laws, and my mom's siblings. For this I am eternally grateful. This all being said, I know God calls us out of our comfort zone and I am working on it. I am. I am learning not to be self-reliant on what I think others think of me, and this means being open to more friendships. This is a good thing. Maybe God is wanting me to expand my territory, and I'm down. Just my thoughts and feelings here. Oh, still, love you, love me, love you, love me. Hey, thanks for reading!